YES!
I'm trying not to be so lazy and post more often. It's just that the first week of school has been less than interesting, and I've made some New Year's Resolutions I hope to keep:
1. Kick ass in school.
For the past three semesters, I've been dicking around, writing off assignments as too meaningless to take seriously, when really it's been my own insecurities that have kept me from achieving my potential. My greatest fear in life is that I'm not as smart or as talented as I think I am, and it's kept me from doing so many things! But no more! This year, I start anew answering to no one's expectations - not even my own! Or perhaps, ESPECIALLY not my own because I'm my worst critic (as my post-Christmas Party freak-out showed me). What the fuck do *I* know anyway???
2. Get rid of my pimples.
I've been waiting since I was 18 to "grow out" of my acne, and I'm really fucking tired of it. I'm turning 22 in March, and I'm not about to enter my mid-20's looking like a teenaged chocolate addict. I don't know how many of you remember that commercial back in the 90's for this acne medicine where this guy with crazy acne says, "Some people think I eat too many chocolate bars, or that I don't wash my face..." That line has been haunting me since I was 12 when some bastard kid called me Pizza Face. Well, I bought a start-up kit for Proactiv and while I still have great doubts, this is going to be my last and final attempt to rid myself of this affliction and maybe FINALLY my mom will be able to talk about something besides my face.
3. Stay in shape.
Pilates. Breakdancing. Belly dancing. The City Dance Corps on King St. offers all kinds of dance lessons and even though I don't really have money for it, I'm going to keep going because our bodies are the vessels for our mind and body and we have to treat them all equally well.
4. Play piano.
I've already started slacking off. It doesn't help that I only know how to play one song and I don't have any good sheet music to learn more songs from.
The list goes on and on... I'm my own on-going project. Hopefully I'll find a good job when I'm done school to help facilitate all these interests. I wish I knew what I wanted to do so I can start working towards that direction, but I still have no idea.
Anyway, to make up for my lack of posts, I'm putting up two pieces of art I've been working on, which as you know I really never do because I'm shy and you guys are too overwhelmingly more talented than me, but Sweaty Sneaker Toe sent me a beautiful e-mail that has made me feel a bit selfish for not sharing my art with you guys when you're always sharing yours with me.
This one I started a week or two ago when I saw that Sweaty got a new haircut and I saw a picture of her for the first time on her blog.
I started the second one today and I still don't know where it's going yet. Sorry they're blurry. I don't have a scanner.
1. Kick ass in school.
For the past three semesters, I've been dicking around, writing off assignments as too meaningless to take seriously, when really it's been my own insecurities that have kept me from achieving my potential. My greatest fear in life is that I'm not as smart or as talented as I think I am, and it's kept me from doing so many things! But no more! This year, I start anew answering to no one's expectations - not even my own! Or perhaps, ESPECIALLY not my own because I'm my worst critic (as my post-Christmas Party freak-out showed me). What the fuck do *I* know anyway???
2. Get rid of my pimples.
I've been waiting since I was 18 to "grow out" of my acne, and I'm really fucking tired of it. I'm turning 22 in March, and I'm not about to enter my mid-20's looking like a teenaged chocolate addict. I don't know how many of you remember that commercial back in the 90's for this acne medicine where this guy with crazy acne says, "Some people think I eat too many chocolate bars, or that I don't wash my face..." That line has been haunting me since I was 12 when some bastard kid called me Pizza Face. Well, I bought a start-up kit for Proactiv and while I still have great doubts, this is going to be my last and final attempt to rid myself of this affliction and maybe FINALLY my mom will be able to talk about something besides my face.
3. Stay in shape.
Pilates. Breakdancing. Belly dancing. The City Dance Corps on King St. offers all kinds of dance lessons and even though I don't really have money for it, I'm going to keep going because our bodies are the vessels for our mind and body and we have to treat them all equally well.
4. Play piano.
I've already started slacking off. It doesn't help that I only know how to play one song and I don't have any good sheet music to learn more songs from.
The list goes on and on... I'm my own on-going project. Hopefully I'll find a good job when I'm done school to help facilitate all these interests. I wish I knew what I wanted to do so I can start working towards that direction, but I still have no idea.
Anyway, to make up for my lack of posts, I'm putting up two pieces of art I've been working on, which as you know I really never do because I'm shy and you guys are too overwhelmingly more talented than me, but Sweaty Sneaker Toe sent me a beautiful e-mail that has made me feel a bit selfish for not sharing my art with you guys when you're always sharing yours with me.
This one I started a week or two ago when I saw that Sweaty got a new haircut and I saw a picture of her for the first time on her blog.
I started the second one today and I still don't know where it's going yet. Sorry they're blurry. I don't have a scanner.
posted by min_o at
1:12 PM
3 Comments:
YAY! ok, so i know part of your post is about NOT being your own worst critic and not imagining the criticism of the world (which we all seem to have trouble drowning out and hiding is just so much more comfortable at times) which means I should really not say anything about your offerings, but nevermind all that, i will, and i am, on this king of run-on sentences that only means to say Thank You for sharing your talents with us (which are really brilliant, although i'm trying not to act the critic here) and for your admirable bravery baring both secret art, personal sabotage confessions, AND zit resolutions which is all very inspirational. I don't think even YOU could hold yourself back. :)
i love the girl one. i love the colours and the surrealish roundness of the shapes and it makes me feel all lava lamp klimt-ish folk art neo-urban ganja yummy or something i can't really explain. if you paint a big one i'll buy it.
i don't know how to paint but when i do, i'll give you one.
thank u for ur non-criticisms. =)
Good resolutions, Irish told me once (yesterday) that to-do lists longer than 4 things long never get done - I think there is truth in that, take it a step at a time, the things you are describing are habit forming and if you fuck up the rotation you'll feel bad about it - until you avoid doing that thing because the commitment weights you down. We all struggle with the same things but I think this will work. Make ONE thing a habit - do 2 hours of homework for the fuck of it everyday. After your used to that, even if you have to do more, try an hour of one of the other things till you get a rythm for that. Or tell me to shut the fuck up and take my own advice - that works too :)
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